Then there are the really dark times, where I'm contemplating what would it be like if I were dead. Fortunately, the "life of contradictions" intervenes, since if I were, that'd just put all my burdens onto my parents and friends, which would make me feel even worse, they don't deserve that.
i dont mean to make light of this, but i am reminded of an early episode of Futurama, where Fry thinks hes going into a phone booth, and its actually a suicide booth. its when he meets Bender for the first time and bender jumps in the booth with him so he wouldnt have to pay for his suicide. a voice asks "how would you like to die?" and fry says "i'd like to make a collect call please", the voice says "you have chosen slow and painful". bender says "ohhhh thats a good one".
anyways, quintin, far more people than you realize know exactly what you are talking about. it takes courage to bring it up, especially to a group of faceless names.