So, I'm an evil racist.
I mortally offended one of the two short, black, smart chicks in my mediation seminar.
See, I'm doing a project with three other people next term, once of whom is SBSC #2. In class I sit near SBSC #1. We've talked a bit on class breaks and she is friends with the one guy who is on the project, who also sits by me. In other words, I've talked about the project, in conversations to which she was a party.
But SBSC#2 is the one doing the project. She sits in the back though, and I've only talked to her twice.
I mistook SBSC #1 for SBSC #1. Now, this could be because they are both short, both black, and both smart and contribute to class in useful ways. I'm pretty sure there's a third black chick in the class, but I can only vaguely recollect her because she doesn't say much and I've never had anything to do with her. It could be because I associate mediation and SBSC #1 because of the conversation we've had, especially about the project when the guy was in the conversation.
Or it could be because I'm an evil racist bitch who thinks that all black women look alike.
Guess which one she is going by?
Grrr. Ok, there are two tall, obese, white women who are both very friendly, very intelligent, and who are good friends. Yeah, I get them mixed up too. There are two medium-height thin-ish women with bangs who are soft-spoken. I get them mixed up too. There are a half dozen twenty-something white guys with short, blonde-to-light brown hair and slightly trendy overcasual clothes. I get them all mixed up. I get people mixed up, especially when there's thirty of them, I've had personal interactions with only a third of them, and those interactions were mostly very short-lived.
It happens.
But no, if I get two people confused who are both short, black, intelligent women, then I'm a racist ****.
But fine, she wants to be offended, that's her business. So why am I all worried about it?
Damn white guilt. It's farking contagious.
