I hear you. I got hooked on Pilot retractables in high school.
These puppies in fine, black ink:
When in college and I took lots of notes or had essays to complete, I slipped the following on it:
Nowadays, at work, I don't write as much on paper and do without the triangular grip. It works better, as I can keep t in a front pants pocket with no snag. Matter of fact, I really don't like rubber-y grips on the front end of retractables, nowadays, because they catch in my pocket lining material.
Also, I only buy retractables and avoid cap-type due to losing caps or the pen body loosing itself, getting caught in pocket material, and giving me a good ink blot in my pants.
This very day, however, I cam carrying a Cross chrome ball-point:
It is one I gave my grandma Bertie for a Christmas gift some years back. When she died last year, my dad found it and its pencil cognate and brought them to me.
It is not as smooth-writing as a Pilot, but it does pretty well and is very slick in the pocket.