You are a wierd-o. You need help. Unfortunately, it appears there is very little that can help you.
All you wanted to do was look at pictures of 1911s?
You have no desire to fondle them? No desire to strip them bare, and then do things to their internals and dress them up with pretties that you bought just for them?
You, sir, are sick!
Next, you will be telling us that you have done something besides swap stocks on those N-frames - maybe even put a laser on one.
stay safe.