Well, based on what I'm feeling in her neck, yeah, it's the lymphoma.
I can distinctly feel both lymph nodes now.
*expletive deleted*ck.
It's treatable, which will buy time, if I'm willing to throw money at it, which I am.
She's still energetic (for an elderly dog), playful, and loving. Her arthritis is biting, but the Galliprant and the red light therapy helps keep that at bay to the point where she's still jumping up in bed.
That's what makes this so *expletive deleted*ing insidious. It's not painful, so I look at her and all I can think is "how can she be sick? She's acting normally?"
I had a really bad day yesterday. REALLY bad mentally, trying to reconcile how I'll know when it's time for her to go vs my own selfish desire to keep her around at all costs because I'm afraid to face life without her.
*expletive deleted*ck.